Desert Moon

Desert Moon

Pushkar, Rajasthan                                                                                                                       India, May 2017

Into the vastness to find herself, into the melting sun.  Her heart yearned for love, though the answers laid in solitude. The golden sand whispered her secrets of the world. She gazed at the endless dunes, which appeared to be nothing but desert, although she slowly realized they were full of hidden life.

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She saw the flat horizon, the vast empty space, the sound of the camel’s breath, the quiet wind and then all around, nothing. Absolutely nothing.

It was as if the world has chosen this place to display its vastness, its simplicity, and complexity. It was as if this moment had chosen her, to show that she too could become like this desert.

Empty, infinite and at the same time full of life.

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She could feel the earth beneath her feet, the warmth supporting her telling her to dance. Inviting her into the wild, into the wildness of her heart.

She could hear the wild calling her, “Come with me and release your worldly troubles. Dance with the desert and live by the wind”

She realized in that moment she was free. That her freedom was within her. When she moved her body she could feel her soul expanding into her surroundings. She knew that her world had expanded. It was more vast than ever before.

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Pure expression flowed through her body, pouring through her veins and out her fingertips. Completely immersed in the moment she surrendered. Everything became quiet as if the world had no darkness.

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The sunset bathed the scene in an unearthly light. She looked up at the sky and saw the vast space full of questions and answers, knowledge and truth. A white light began to shine from behind the dunes. The moonlight tiptoed its way over the desert until everything was covered in a sheet of silver silk.

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The world was changing and she was apart of this transformation. Despite all the injustice in the world, all the horrible things that happen to us that we feel we don’t deserve. Despite the fact that we sometimes find our selves stuck in a situation incapable of changing. Despite the hatred, the ugliness, the disagreements. Love is even stronger and it will help us grow. It will help us expand until there are no walls to box us in.

Only then will we be able to understand the Moon and the stars. Only then will we be able to understand the miracles of life.

She became still, a deep stillness within. She heard the Moon whisper,

“When you are here, everything is wild”.

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Thank you from the bottom of my heart to my beautiful and amazingly talented friend Nogani Moore. For sharing and capturing this magical experience in the desert of Pushkar.

 

 

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How I got here…

How I got here…

This is where my journey begun…

I started dancing when I was 4 years old and fell in love.

I loved expressing myself through movement and sharing it with those around me. I felt that I could share a little piece of my heart with them. Even at a young age I was aware of the depth of this practice, though I couldn’t put it into words I could feel it pulsing through me as I moved.181227_328969453897218_234868263_nAs I grew older like anything things began to change. Though my love for dance kept me connected, it kept me inspired to be the best possible version of myself. And through this inspiration I knew there was something much bigger than the tiny picture we are shown.

I could feel it when I moved. That something we are all searching for, it was inside of us. We just needed to reconnect.

We are all a part of something much larger then ourselves. Through movement I feel this connection. I feel this truth. Dancing helped shape me into an open, expressive women with a deep connection to my heart and body. Dancing taught me it is okay to be raw, honest and a little bit crazy at times.

971946_328969480563882_425007318_nThough once in the professional world we are tainted by an image we must uphold. We are told we must look and move a certain way in order to succeed, in order to be accepted. The challenge was to stay true to yourself while trying to fit a mould of perfection.

After years of dance and pushing myself to my absolute limit, physically and mentally. Altering myself to fit inside a box, parts of myself were falling away. I was become a person i didn’t recognise, I was strive for things that didn’t fill me up.

I was beginning to lose myself,  going around in circles hoping for a different outcome. Trying to please others only I was hurting myself in the process. Because if nothing changes, nothing changes. So I decided to step away, I decided to take time to heal.

This is when I found yoga, or yoga found me…

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I decided to step away from dancing to dedicate an entire year to self-love. For me Yoga is not just a physical practice, it is a mindset, a way of life. A practice of healing and devotion.

We all have a time in our lives that we feel the darkness creeping in. Where our mind is full of doubt and our heart full of hopelessness. It is in these moments the greatest lessons takes place. We cannot build ourselves until we fall apart. We can not find ourselves until we let go of who we think we are.

Yoga gives us the tools to heal, It creates space to look at the broken pieces and rebuild our foundation with kindness and love. Here we are able to see our pain for what is it, an opportunity to change, an opportunity to transform.

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Yoga has taught me to be kind, not only to those around me but most importantly to myself. It has taught me patiences, it has taught me trust. Through these teachings my entire life has evolved.

It is with this mind set and love for myself that I have returned to dance. I no longer see myself as a dancer but a free mover. I now move with love, without judgment, without expectation. I allow my body to move in order to express not impress. I feel deeply and allow those feelings to move my body.

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I now live with a deep connection of body and mind. I honour my body for all that it is and all that is does. Gone are the days I will torture myself to look a certain way, to fit a picture of perfection.

Each and every one of us is uniquely beautiful in all of our faults, in all of our darkness. And I want to help people see this, I want to help people reconnect with themselves through Yoga,  Free Movement and Insights of Truth.

So now I’m here, In India and my journey continues…

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I am here to experience all that I can. To absorb all of the culture and knowledge, the beauty and the chaos. Im here to face the challenges that are presented to me in order to grow. To dance my way through the beautiful times and use my insight to get me through the tough times.

To deepen my yoga practice, to deepen my understanding. To find truth in simplicity, to find lessons in the craziness we call life.

I hope to re inspire you to try something new, or try something old with a different mindset. I hope to help you dive right into life, to surrender in deep trust until you live a life guided by your soul.

Come with me as I surrender to the journey ahead…

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Photos by Maleika Halpin & Billie Edwards